korean vocab word of the day.

미련.
lingering attachment [affection]; regret; reluctance to give (it, a person) up

ex: 미련이 (남아) 있다.
be still attached (to); have a lingering affection [love] (for); have a lingering regret (for the past); feel (some) regret; think regretfully (of).


// from 연애의 발견 [2014].

how did i change?

asked this question to friends and family back in the states after i had hung out with them for a bit. here were some of the responses:

• you're more sarcastic/cynical.
• more sarcastic.
• you sound more white. (???)
• you're more feminine/ladylike.  (LOL. still trying to figure out this one.)
• you look exactly the same.
• you look the same.
• you're not tan at all.
• you're not dark at all. were you really in africa?
• more mature.
• more mellow.
• you appreciate every thing. like every.single.little.thing.

Haha. funny

"It's 2014."

"It's 2014."

that's the phrase Yata and i used to say whenever Peace Corps life hit us hard.
or whenever we didn't feel like doing sh...tuff.
because 2014 was the year we were supposed to be home. for good.

well, she is.
back in hippie Portland, where i guess my visit will have to be delayed for another year.
because as for me... well, you know how life works, how *God works. Haha

third year.

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i figure now that i have regular-ish internet, i'd get back into blogging.
this time, however, it might be a little less censored (as a warning).

tumblr, i'll use for less wordy(?) and more media-centered posts (vids/photos/etc.).
tentatively, at least.

we'll see how this goes.

"It's 2014."

and on to '15...

102 days.

-ish. not sure how accurate that is.
not that i'm really counting [honestly, i'm not]
but i'm getting super anxious [about everything].

what am i DOING after peace corps?
question of the year.

where do i wish to find myself in 5 years?
married. with a kid. or about to have one.
working at some NGO. preferably IRC.
perhaps part-time in business school? or finished with business school?
with a concentration on management, non-profit work, and development.
maybe in DC?
if not Chicago? or norcal [i wish]?
settled into a solid church community.
perhaps taking a few seminary classes part-time / on the side?
hopefully traveling regularly abroad for work and leisure purposes.
being a good wife, mother, sister, daughter, in-law.
i want to be really tight with my in-laws. how awesome would that be?
maybe even continually improving my Korean.
working hard at what i do.
loving God, my job, my family.
spontaneous, adventure-seeking... NOT stuck into some lame routine
which only consists of earning $, being successful, and having a good rep.

한.숨.

everything is coming to an end...
how fast 27 months can fly.

오랜만이다.

all of my older entries have been "reverted to drafts."
never thought i'd ever do that...
re-reading some old entries made me realize how much i miss blogging. &man, some entries were super emo, dramatic, and entertaining. i'll keep those coming (;

on a side note, 4 months left in Ethiopia.
i know i say this all the time, but... it's crazy how time flies.

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change.

time for a clean slate.